It takes time! It all takes time. 💞 You’re growing...

It takes time! It all takes time. 💞 You’re growing and you may not even know. ✨
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Here we goooo, Monday!! Actually ah, I’ve been operating on 2 planes (that i know of 😂) . On one hand, i have had a quite a breakthrough with my therapy that I didn’t even have as a goal, if that makes sense. Haha so on that plane, am very happy!!
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On the other, I’ve been pretty overwhelmed with the news! I’ve been trying to understand why, and I think it’s that we’ve been conditioned to believe that systemic failure is a direct result of our individual failure. Like. “The earth is dying because you aren’t using metal straws and recycling everything.” “Racist structures exist because you are racist.” “The elephants are dying because you “only” care about racism.” Erm, like huh? No? individual actions count for sure! But DAMN, the scapegoating of the individual neeeeeds to stop!
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Because that type of guilt is IMMOBILIZING. And really, it’s designed to be. We end up being too busy trying to make the “best decision” as a consumer (when so much of the information is purposely hidden from us), whilst running this endless race in our careers, being told we have to stand up to systemic injustice but in a way where you can keep your job and at the same time trying to form meaningful connections with the people in our lives, take care of them and find time for ourselves to just do the things that make us happy, i mean, haha what the HOW?? Then when people bring up things like politics, policies, systemic issues, that we may not understand, we’re just too fucking tired and guilty to brain that, even though that’s where the main change happens.
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And it really gets in the way of us caring, however imperfectly. I think that’s also by design. So where I’m at, is that I’m gonna be doing what I can when I can, trust that I am, finding organisations and people to be learn new ways of doing things, and shaking off guilt that isn’t mine to carry. If you guys wanna share how you are braining all this, please do!!

Sending lots and LOTS of love to you guys!!!!!

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